If you're not yet ready for personal coaching, this is a great way to do some self-paced healing work. You can begin right now to identify and understand your unhealthy relationship patterns (have you taken the free diagnostic quiz yet?).
The Fix Your Picker Workbook has several easy-to-use checklists to help you realize what has been troubling you. It includes writing prompts and exercises designed to bring clarity to your past, present, and future relationships so you can begin implementing the new, healthier practices suggested.
This is the path forward for developing the confidence and capacity to create the secure, loving relationship you desire.